the damn feeling!

what the hell am i thinking?!!
i never have this feeling, i never have this thinking before!!
don't know why, i feel nobody care of me, nobody sayang me.
when i did wrong, everybody say me scold me..
when i did right, nobody will praise me or say i am the good one..
it's hurt me!!
when u guys say me, i feel hurt! i feel want to cry!
sometimes, i just can leave myself alone and cry alone..
sometimes, i really don't know want to pour my feeling to who, then just can keep it inside my heart, sad alone and cry alone.. T.T
not i don't want to tell, is i don't know how to tell, how to say..
where are you when i need you??? :(((((((
anyway, i just hope i can be happy like before!
don't emo anymore!!!!
i hate this feeling!!!