emo?

不知道为什么，突然觉得，很多东西都变了
还是，我想太多了？
总觉得，跟你们的距离好像一瞬间，变得好遥远了
沟通也少了，见面也少了，聊天也少了
有时候，真的不知道要怎样说
本来很兴奋的，到后来只是让我很失望
我也厌倦了这些事
某人说，我变了
那我也想说，你们也变了
今天，真的感触很多，又看了一部感触良多的戏
心里想着，到最后，谁才是能够一路陪伴我的朋友
到最后留在我身边的知己会是谁
之前，原本以为会是你们
结果，我想，应该不是了
很多次，当了中间人，真的很痛苦
心里每次藏着很多的秘密
这种感觉，真的很难受
或许，到最后只有她能成为我一辈子的知己
又或许，到最后，谁都不是

这几天，无法否认，真的很伤心
学生又伤了我的心
对他们那么好，他们竟然这样对我
尤其是她，简直就是没有礼貌，越来越得寸进尺了
想要骂她，又想到她的生世蛮可怜的，就忍着了
要对他们凶也不是，因为我做不到，毕竟他们也懂事了，不像幼儿园
现在对他们好，他们就爬上了头顶
所以，真的不知道该怎么办
只好忍住咯

有时候，真的很希望有个人能够懂我
不必我说，也知道我在想什么，开心还是难过
有时候，真的很希望，当我说 “我没事，我很好” 的时候，
会有个人说，“ 其实你一点都不好”
有时候想了想，每次朋友伤心难过，就想办法让他们心情好点
那当我伤心难过时，又有谁，即使我不说，他们也知道我很难过？

my life

my life..
monday to friday, i need to face those children..

i just can hang out with friend during saturday, sunday and friday afternoon..

because sometimes i need to bring back my work to do at home..

finish working already but still need to work, really tired with it sometimes..

my student, they totally didn't scare of me..

kindergarden, primary one also same..

whatever, maybe i too good and kind already?

but this is not a good thing! =.=

for kindergarden, i shout at them and scold them everyday like orang gila!

but they still very naughty and don't want listen to me..

just recover from "NO SOUND" last week!

but my cough haven't recover.. =(

everyday coughing while teaching..

another teacher said, maybe they biasa with scold and beat already..

because the principal always beat and scold them..

but beat and scold, really not suitable for me..

got few times, when i want to beat them, they look at me, and see them want to cry out already, then i not willing to beat them anymore..

maybe because of this, then they didn't scare of me?

for primary, i admit i'm not a good teacher..

but, i just hope i can try my best to help them, teach them..

many times, i feel want to give up, want to resign..

but, when i see their cute face, cute pattern, then i'm not willing to do that..

my friend told me, is better to resign.. because my health become worst now.. and see i so suffer everyday..

hmmm..........

and today, i get my Very First Salary!!

don't know why, i can't feel any happiness..

normally, people get their very first time salary will be very happy right? but i don't know why i can't feel any happiness at all..

anyway, although it's not much, but at least i earn it by OWN! =)

and got a thing want to mention, don't know why they count until so CLEARLY.. LOL

between, i no need wake up so early in the morning tomorrow..

no need teach for few days.. but need to go there wash and clean.. wanna become a maid.. lol =.=

anyway, i feel pity for some children..

# I WANNA GO FOR VACATION! =( #