waste time again. =((

boring..

really boring.. sigh. =(

i waste time again..

i waste 4 days again.. =.="'

really no mood to study..

my mind just keep on thinking want to play only.. LOLs.

still haven't start to study science..

before SPM started..

i already read the reference book..

but now.. forgot all i have read before d..

sigh! =((

i think.. maybe tomorrow only study science le ba..

because don't have enough time d..

my account still haven't settle.. gosh.. =(

arrgh! why i so lazy?

issh... >.<

aikz.. really lazy..

i hate myself..

i hate chin!

i hate me!

i hate you!

i hate you!

i hate you!

anyway..

wish that i can do well on tomoro paper.. account.. =))

now don't know why got a bit worry about it..

the subject i never worried before..

aikz.. >.<

i think i aim for it A enough d..

don't aim so high d..

because..

期望越高.. 失望越大..

LOLs.

really hope that tomoro i can do well..

chin~ cannot afraid anymore.. =))

God bless me.. pleaseeeeee.. =)

now..

i waste my time again..

sigh! =((

crazy de me.. take some pic.. LOLs. XD

apple pie~

yummy~ yummy~ =))

took a sampat pic..

haha.. just wake up.. =D

ugly la..

i admit i'm crazy.. =/
play the crazy penguin till crazy crazy d.. haha.. =P

GOOD LUCK for tomoro.. =))

all the best!!!

i hate you! =[

just want to write something that happened on these 2 days..
it was a damn 2 days.. =(


thursday night..
happened something quite shocked me..
and i was angry!
now he always like that..
don't know what's wrong with him..
arrgh!!!
really not my fault!!! =((

friday night.. yesterday..

i angry again..

arrgh!!!

promised ppl d still go?!

wth!!!

i'm damn angry!

late 2 weeks will die izzit?

sigh sigh sigh!

i'm really angry.. because she promise me d still go..

i'm very angry..

i will not forgive u!

arrgh!!! T_______T

all is 'siao kia' 's fault.. =((

moody..

damn angry..

sigh! =((

i hate you!

i hate you!

i hate you!

boring. =.="

aikz..
feel boring with life..
everyday do the same things..
aikz.. =.="

arrgh!!!
my add maths..
can't control my emotional now..
keep on thinking my add maths.. =(
just now go a website checked the answer..
many did wrong d..
the question 1 i did wrong too! careless mistake again..
sigh. =(
i did a careless mistake again.. =(
haih.. i lost the marks again lo..
the worst is.. i lost question 1 marks..
the question that can score full marks..
sigh. why always did the careless mistake..
why so careless?? =(
T___________T
moody..
down..
scared can't get B also..
sigh. =( I DON'T WANT! I DON'T WANT!!!
now.. i don't know what should i do d..
study? no mood d.. =( sienz..
like don't have confidence anymore..
we had took 6 subjects..
all like die also.. cham! aikz.. =(
i think the results will become a regretment in my life soon!
T___________T







nothing to do..
post some lame things..
LOLs.

你在前世有過這樣的經歷：前世的你是個花花公子/公主，奉承你討好你的人相當多，你幾乎被他她們捧上了天，完全不知道天高地厚咯！於是，你變得越來越霸道，越來越不講理，完全是一副為所欲為的模樣。後來，老天為了懲罰你，就決定讓你在今世默默體會孤立無援的滋味。
*今世的你:今世容易感覺孤獨的你實際上是一個充滿大智慧的人。你看慣了身邊的是非，心思就逐漸變得細膩起來。你不喜歡讓自己處於人多的地方，你喜歡安靜的環境，你的耐力很好，這樣的你常常躲起來研究自己喜歡的東東，任何人都走不進你的小小世界，你的一生都在為自己做規劃。你喜歡純潔且無私的感情模式，戀愛中的你是個具有自我犧牲精神的人...，多愁善感的你囉嗦起來也是挺嚇人的呢！你的愛情攻勢是今生無誨型的哦！
*你的缺點:你這個人經常是聰明反被聰明誤
*今世跟你速配的人:想轉世做老虎的人。

生命的颜色::黑色:::人格分裂小恶魔
你拥有多重人格，一会儿是天使、一会儿是恶魔，集最佳实行力、理解力、社交力于一想出人头地对你不是难事，但是你却常常另外去追求遥不可及的目标，以致终其一生都在追逐梦中楼阁，要小心分裂性格会对你造成不平衡的影响，让你难以得到真正的快乐。

=.="'
sweat right?
LOLs. boring..

sigh. =(

arrgh!!!
add maths.. suck!
sigh. =(

yesterday was add maths paper..
really die d.. =(
regret that i din revise hard for it..
before the day of exam..
i slept!! =(
sleep again.. din revise finish..
sigh. =( really hate myself.. like to sleep. =.="'

paper 1.. quite ok gua.. but got a bit regret din revise hard for paper 1.. because quite easy..
don't know can get 40/80 or not.. because got some questions i din do, forgot how to do d.
i wish can! =D
paper 2.. sigh. =(
really difficult.. really!!! =(
a lot of questions i din do.. just let it blank.. T__________T
section A.. 2 or 3 questions din do at all..
section B.. just do 2 questions only..
my god man! =(
really hard for me!
before the exam start.. before 2.00p.m.
really gan jiong.. =S
gan jiong till 3.30p.m.
sigh. @.@
really cant concentrated and do well at that time. =(
aikz.. T__________T
before this.. wish to get A- for add maths..
but now.. i think get B also got a bit hard..
sigh. =(
just hope can get A- or B+ for add maths..
just hope that the standard will become lower.. because paper 2 really difficult!


hmm..
all the best lo.. =)

+U

yesterday afternoon till night..
my mind keep on thinking my maths..
sigh. =(
really cant concentrated while memorise my moral.. =S
aikz.. cham! =(

today moral paper..
sigh. T________T
a bit difficult..
got some questions don't know to do..
sigh.. >.<
don't know can get A or not..
just wish that can get A or A- lor.. =)
god bless me pleaseeeee.. =) haha..

tomorrow is add maths..
hmm.. wish can get A- for add maths.. (haha.. never got B in school also) LOLs.
now still haven't revise finish my add maths..
haven't start to do any exercise..
arrgh! sienz.. =X
felt sleepy and tired.. haha..

anyway..
really wish that tomorrow i can do well..
wish can get A- for add maths.. =D

jiayou ba~
god really must bless me aaa.. =)
good luck~


王爱晶! 你不是说过要把它当成一个普通的考试吗?
怎么现在又变成这样了? =S
你真的需要把它当成是一个普通的考试..
因为这样.. 你的思绪才能平静下来..
思绪平静.. 你才能把它做好..
所以.. 王爱晶..
你一定要放轻松地面对每一张试卷..
把它当做是一个普通的考试..
千万不可以紧张..
一定要冷静.. 一定要!
加油吧!! =))

sad and sad..!

arrgh!
i want ki siao d.. really.. >.<
become crazy.. mad d..!

today...
is maths paper..
before this.. i wish that i can get A+ for maths..
but now.. speechless..
i cant! really cant d! i did many careless mistake..
my god! felt want to go "long pia" d.. T__________T
paper 1.. sigh. =(
did many wrong.. a lot are careless mistake.. issh.. >.<
now see back the paper.. actually i can correct 4 or 5 questions more..
arrgh!
4 or 5 questions.. those all are careless mistake..
really want "long pia" d..
wanna vomit blood liao.. >.<
careless! i'm really careless!
T__________T
paper 2..
before exam..
i hope that i can do well and score well on this paper..
then only can get my "dream result".. A+..
but.. after the exam..
i think i cant d..
i cant get A+ d.. sigh. =(
i'm very sad..
i'm very sure i lost 10 marks on paper 2 d..
others.. sure will have some wrong too..
aikz.. =(
paper 1 lost 10 marks.. paper 2 lost 10 marks..
now lost 20 marks d..
sure cannot get A+ d..
aikz.. really really sad.. =(
T__________T
god never bless me!
guan yin ma and tua pek gong never bo bi me! =((

now...
just hope that i can get A lor..
aikz.. =(

cannot careless d!!!
be careful!!!

long time no see. LOLs. =)

arrgh!
again..
i waste my time.. sigh. =(
i waste two days..
don't know do what.. dreaming again.. =(
yesterday night..
keep got ppl msg me while i'm studying..
LOLs.
today..
just start my revision..
always last minutes..
死性不改..
sigh. =( when i do the past year paper.. i had forgot how to do d.. cham~
add maths.. lagi teruk! =.="
sienz la..
try my best to do well.. =)

for yesterday....
yesterday night..
ZY msg me.. LOLs.
quite long time din chat with her d..
her first msg is.. long time no see d..
haha..
ya.. really long time no see d.. 5 years d.. haha..
then.. she said.. suddenly very miss me..
LOLs. =)
i miss you too la.. =)




now i know what should i do d..
don't "come into my world" again..
pleaseeeee.. =)




jiayou!!!
Good LUck!!! =))

aikz..

finally..
we had took 3 subject..
that was BM, BI, and sejarah..
BM.. like don't have any confident anymore.. =(
BI and sejarah.. sigh. =(

18/11::::
BM and sejarah paper 1..
7:55.. went into exam class..
my heartbeat very very fast..
felt very very cold.. =.="
after open the exam paper..
my heart jump more faster..
because i aim de question din come out.. sigh. =(
but its ok. nevermind.. i did the question which i know enough..
and i think that i can do well..
but.. after come out from the class..
many of friends also did that question..
my god! i'm afraid..
afraid that standard will become higher..
second paper..
was sejarah paper 1..
when i do the paper..
din have any stress..
din scared..
LOLs.
felt like normal exam.. haha..
don't know why..
but i know that i won't be score well in that paper..
third paper..
BM paper 2..
after saw all the question..
quite gan jiong..
because sastera just kena 2 question..
and novel din kena at all.. aikz..
now.. don't know my BM can get A or not.. sigh.

yesterday.. 19/11..
english paper..
aikz.. my essay look like primary school student write de essay..
LOLs.
don't know will get how much.. aikz..
sejarah.. sigh.. =(
the subject that i "love" the most..
when form 5.. mid-term and trial exam..
i never passed.. LOLs. =.="
before the sejarah paper..
i did my best to memorize it..
but.. i can't.. =(
all the things cannot 'save' into my brain.. i'm afraid..
when i open the exam paper.. want vomit blood d..
My God! all siva gave de ramalan was kena!
my god man.. =(
after i come out from the class..
i'm regret and sad..
regret i din memorize it.. sigh.. =(
everyone was very happy.. because the ramalan all kena..
if got read and memorize well..
should be no problem.. know to answer all..
alien jiu shuang liao lo..
because she got memorize hard.. read hard..
no problem liao de la.. she can get A d.. =)
but me.. aikz..
din memorize it.. really really regret..
but i think if i memorize all, also cannot 'save' into my brain..
because i'm very week in memorize.. =(
aikz.. don't know can pass or not..
i want get B aaa..
but.. like got a bit hard d.. haihz.. =(
my result just can A or B only..
i want A or B only..
cannot see any C or D or E or even G.. LOLs.
no! no G! and no C D and E.. NO!
just can A and B.. =)

still have 7 subjects..
i must study hard d..
but.. science and EA like got a bit hard..
because i'm very week in that two subject..
arrgh! again need to memorize.. i HATE!
especially science.. never get A since primary school.. LOLs.
but.. maybe i will get A in my spm? LOLs.
i don't think so.. =.="
anyway.. i must死背la.. aikz.. =(
add maths.. will try my best to revise it..
must get A.. (dont know can or not).. haha..
but will try my best lo.. =)

CHIN!! u must get at least 7As.. or 8As..
must! must! must!
aikz.. all the best ba..
jiayou!!!



aikz.. he don't want "choi" me d.. =(
why am i so stupid.. aikz..


you make me so stress..

exam make me become crazy.. =(

Good Luck!!!

tomoro...
is our big day..
18/11... SPM!
also is hong birthday..
quite kolian..
same day with spm lo..
LOLs.
sorry.. cant celebrate with u d.. >.<

18/11/09.. SPM..
our big day..
arrgh!!!

yesterday someone told me..
he said..
SPM quite literally determines what our life will be..
LOLs.
after i heard this.. i was afraid and scared..>.<
yesterday.. while study i was cried again..
T______________T
cant control myself..

arrgh!!!
really really really not enough time d..
i'm still left 3 or 4 hours to study..
because tonight i'm going out..
i did a stupid and crazy thing.. =.='

so.. i still got time to study?
i will not study and read sejarah anymore..
i dont want it influenced others subject..
i dont want waste time on sejarah d..
because i'm still have others subject need to read..
many many many things haven't read..
sejarah.. suck!!
i "love" it! =(
now.. i worry i cant cover my BM..
because still got many things haven't read..
anywhere.. i must read finish it..
because i aim BM for A de.. =)
english.. aikz..
langsung haven't read..
don't know what will happen when i do the english paper..
i'm worry and scare.. >.<
i'm really can't imagine and no dare to imagine what will happen to my sejarah paper..
both papers i oso scare..
because i din study well..
i din memorize..
i din read text book..
sigh. =(
how? i don't know..
hope god bless me..

yesterday..
received many wishes from frens..
such as...
gambateh.. jiayou.. good luck..
and also "u can do it!"

same to him..
he said..
don't give up..
u can do it!
for ur "shine" future..
LOLs. =)


need to offline d..
i hope everything will be fine..
hope GOD BLESS ME~

GOOD LUCK~
GAMBATEH~
ALL THE BEST~
=)

arrgh!!!

arrgh! if not include today, still left 1 more day.. issh.. >.<
gonna to die soon..
i'm really really scare now..
but i don't know what should i do now..
i'm kinda lost my direction.. T_________T

hmm.. BM.. wutts.
i now only realize that BM i still got many many things haven't revise and take a look..
sigh. =(
especially 'contoh karangan'..
i never read it before.. LOLs.
i'm really scare and worry that i don't have enough time to read it and take a look..
saturday and sunday.. i used a lot of time to arrange my BM notes..
really messy.. =.="'
after i arranged finish..
my god..
it look like a mountain..
get what i mean? =)
i had take a pic..
but lazy to post up.. =P

arrgh!
i'm very very scare now..
and worry..
super scare and worry..
i'm worry i will forget all the things when do the exam.. =(
haihz..
very stress now.. =(

i don't have enough time anymore..
gonna to die soon..
i din study hard.. =(
and din work hard.. =(
i'm lost my direction..
T___________T


14/11 [saturday] :::::
my mama bring my brother go out to play kite..
and i followed them.. =)
many funny things happen..
at that time..
i din feel any stress..
i was very happy and enjoyed..
although very tired [because need to run]..
although failed [kite cannot go up].. haha..
but i'm really happy..
don't have any stress at that time.. =)



hmm...
i don't know what should i do now..
i'm really tired with exam..
i hate exam!
forever! =(

she said that,
if you go and watch <2012> movie..
you will feel that spm is just nothing..
LOLs.
really?
i hope so.. =)

my mama said that..
i don't have confidence..
i lack of confidence..
izzit true?
i think so.. =(

i lack of...
sleep.. time.. confidence..
arrgh! headache!
T______________T

i will just try my best..
GOD BLESS ME~
guan yin ma bless me~
tua pek gong bless me~
all the god bless me..
haha..
LOLs. =)

GOOD LUCK..

放弃

剩下5天了.. >.<
时间真的真的不够用了..
没有时间了..
[没时间, 我没时间.......] =)
但是.. 我还是还没准备好..
还有好多好多都还没读..
突然...
想放弃了..
觉得很辛苦.. >.<
真的很讨厌自己..
真的真的很恨我自己..
为什么总是要在最后一分钟才那么拼..
最后一分钟的拼搏,会成功吗?
真的很辛苦..
读到头脑都一片空白了..
其实... 到底有没有进脑我都不知道..
真的不知道.. =.='"

今天.. 一整天的心情都不是很好.. >.<
今早...
她说今晚要去那里住一晚.. 明天才回..
可是.. 我说不要..
我的时间都不够用了.. 去了后不是更不够用?
有时候...
真的觉得人很自私..
是人都会自私..
不知道你是否有没有为我想过..
也许你真的不知道我很压力..
也许你不知道我读到快喘不过气来了..
也许这些你都不知道..
你不曾担心过我的学业..
我知道你非常相信我..
知道我可以做到..
所以不需让你操心.. =)
也许是因为在我们3姐弟里..
我的成绩是最好的..
所以你才不曾担心过我..
可是...
你是否知道..
这次的考试让我感到非常的压力?
你真的不知道..
你也不知道, 我不想让你们失望..
我真的想考取好的成绩..
不想让你们失望..
我想靠我自己..
再继续升学..
我.. 真的不想让你们失望..
可是.. 你们却不知道..

压力..
真的很压力..
我哭了..
流下了压力的泪水..
无法控制自己..
因为真的很压力..
我...
想放弃了..
真的想放弃了..
真的很讨厌很讨厌自己..
到了最后一分钟才那么拼命..
有用吗?
已经没用了..
因为现在头脑都一片空白了..
还有很多很多都还没读..
为了一个科目而花了那么多时间..
导致其他的科目都无法温习到..
真的不值得..
我真的很笨.. =(
现在才时间不够用..

我.. 不想读了..
真的不想读了..
想放弃了..
T___________________T

i'm not okay

spm still left 6 days.. MY GOD! wanna die d.. =.='
yesterday...
i din read any subject.. din touch any book.. wutts.. >.<
headache~ yesterday i was headache..
feeling not well..
and.. because of something..
i was cried.. >.<
after that.. i fall asleep again.. =.="
yesterday night...
i cant sleep..
whole night cant sleep..
thinking of somethings..
thinking of my spm.. thinking of somethings else.. -.-"'
and i din realize that it was 12a.m like that d..
after that.. i lay on the bed and finally fall asleep.. =)

today early in the morning i wake up..
why? because of yesterday i din study anything so today gonna to study..
but.. a unlucky thing was happen..
stomach pain..
i went to toilet many times..
LOLs.
sweat. -.-"
therefore.. i cannot study again..
lay on the bed..
but still pain..
after that.. fall asleep again.. =.='
and now..
head still pain..
headache from yesterday till now.. issh.. >.<
now.. my mind was blank..
blur and blur..
don't know what should i need to do now..
feeling not well..

next wednesday start exam d..
but..
i'm still doing nothing..
give up d?
i don't know.. =(



i'm not okay..

i missed you

You say i only hear what i want to.
You say i talk so all the time so.

And i thought what i felt was simple,
and i thought that i don't belong,
and now that i am leaving,
now i know that i did something wrong
'cause i missed you.
Yeah, i missed you.

And you say i only hear what i want to,
I don't listen hard,
I don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only thinking negative - no, no, no.

So i turned the radio on, I turned the radio off,
and this woman was singing my song:
the lover's in love, and the other's run away,
the lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.

Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, this is not that
I think that i'm throwing, but i'm thrown.

And i thought i'd live forever, but now i'm not so sure,
you try to tell me that i'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

You said that i was naive
and i thought that i was strong.
I thought, "Hey, i can leave, i can leave."
But now i know that i was wrong, 'cause i missed you.

You said,
"You caught me 'cause you want me
and one day you'll let me go."
You try to give away a keeper
or keep me 'cause you know you're just so scared to lose.
And you say, "stay."

You say i only hear what i want to.

毕业了.. >.<

6/11/09
我们终于毕业了..



5/11
我为了那件事而哭了.. 那时的我根本不能控制自己.. >.<
班上发生了不愉快的事情..
但到了最后.. 还是没事了.. =)



6/11
毕业了.. 我们毕业了..
让我期待已久的日子终于到了.. >.<
在还没上台表演的时候.. 我们大家都匆匆忙忙地spray头发..
第一次spray.. 觉得蛮爽的.. 哈哈..
那些给我spray的朋友.. 真的很不好意思.. 我spray到不是很美.. 哈哈.. =P

在后台等着出场的时候.. 真的真的很紧张..
那种紧张的心情到现在还是无法忘记.. 想到都觉得好笑.. 哈哈..
一开始跳的时候.. 哇.... 真的很怕.. 手都在抖了.. 哈哈..
在牵手的那一部分时.. 静妮突然把我的手牵得很紧.. 她应该也是很紧张吧? 哈哈..
虽然这一次的表演发生了很多不愉快的事..
但.. 也增进了我们彼此的友谊.. =)

过后.. 我们一整班便到green box去..
我们六人行的计划最终还是取消了..
但是过后跟班上的人在一快儿玩过后.. 觉得蛮爽的.. 很开心..
大约4点的时候.. 我们6个便出去走走..
sampat的事发生了...
我.. alien.. trecia..
我们三个拿了一件衣服后..
便在orange sorbet 的更衣室里开始sampat了..
在里面.. 我们做了很多sampat的事.. 我们三个一直在里面笑..
尤其是丽婷.. 一直弄我笑.. 还有那只alien也是..
她们俩弄到我的脸都红红了.. 一直笑不停.. 像傻佬一样..
当我们在笑的当儿.. 不懂是哪个白痴讲我们gila.. =.=
拜托.. 你自己才gila咯.. 人家笑有罪啊.. 哈哈..
人家爽你不给啊.. =)

过后.. 我们又回去了green box..
跟YS和VJ庆祝生日..
hmmm.. 这天.. 是我第一次看到黄以森哭.. 哈哈..

到了大概6点的时候..
哇... 整班high了起来..
尤其是老师.. 超high的.. 哈哈..
第一次看到老师那么high.. =D

要回家的时候.. 在房间外等alien出来的当儿..
winnie抱了我.. 还kiss了我一下.. *.*
那时候的我感觉到了朋友给予的温暖..
过后.. 老师也紧紧的抱着我..
从她的眼神里.. 我看到了她的不舍.. *.*

过后..那只alien便哭着出来..
我就知道她会哭..
过后.. 老师的眼睛也红红了.. 老师也哭了..
那时的我告诉自己千万不可以哭.. 一定要忍着.. =)

6/11.. 是让我感到很开心的一天..
在我中学生崖留下了一个美好的回亿..
但.. 更多的是不舍.... >.<
朋友~ 我会想念你们的..
SPM也要加油哦! ;)



7/11
最后一次上sugu的课..
跟了他两年.. aikz..
可惜.. 没跟他拍照.. 哈哈..
sugu.. will be missing you..
haha.. =)



她... 让我感到很失望..
伤心+失望+生气
一个我最好的朋友..
或许以后我再也不会借任何东西给你了..
也许你会认为我小气...
但是.. 你真的让我很失望..
T__________________T

Unlucky.. >.<

haihz..
really really unlucky.. >.<
very very very "fan" now..
"fan"! "fan"! "fan"!
decide long time liao de thing now having problem d.. issh....
wth...... =.=
why? why? why so unlucky de... >.<
haihz.. then now.. don't know can how d..
haihz.. who can help?
haihz.. haihz.. haihz..
SPM coming soon.. aikz.. really die d.. 15 days to go.. >.<
really really scare now..
recently always sleep and day dreaming again.. issh.. >.<
haihz.. "fan" aaaaa............ >.<


yesterday.. ponteng with alien..
haha.. the feeling is....
scaring + fun
hahaha... =)
this was the 2nd time i ponteng with fren..
1st time was form 2..
haha..
but.. this time really really scared..
don't know why.. although is 2nd time ponteng..
haha.. quite fun.. =)
alien.. fun right? haha.. =P